hey.
I need to talk.
In fact, it's maybe the first time I need to talk so much.
I've got lots of people around me who will be happy to listen to me.But not now.
I need to talk during hours. And about only one subject. My year in England.
2 hours ago I was talking with a gapper with who I was working. And I told her that I wanted to go back to the school. And she asked me "Why? You wanna work 80hours a week again?". I told her "Yes, I just need to be with my children, the teachers, everybody". It's incredible. She was telling me that the children came back yesterday. Now, exactly now, I am going back to my room to get change, and then, I go to the library to be with the children, and have fun playing silly games on the internet.
I want to wake up at 6.30 in the morning just to see my boys when they wake up. To tell them to hurry up, to get change quickly, then to tell them "line up quietly", et then, going to breakfast. I want to eat my bacon, my eggs, drink my cofee. I want to see them praying after eating. I want to clean the kitchen for them. They don't help me, but it's a pleasure. I want to see them going to school in their nice uniform. I want to hear them saying "By Mr Angevin, have a nice day!" and "Mr Angevin, i'm sure we are going the match today. Are you going to come to see us playing?". I want to go to the laundry to help Sylv, my friend. I want to talk with her about everything listening to BBC RADIO DERBY, with the man and his strange voice. Then I go to my other duties. I want to teach english to my Russians, Sasha and Jenya. They learnt so fastly... I want them to teach me russian.again. I want to teach french to Lee, the japenese, and to Gary, the chinese. So much fun. They aren't able to remember a thing those bastard.lol.
I want to do patroling, the thing that the gappers generaly hate. But me, I love it. Why? because you're surrounded by the children. Jess come to me to hug me. Steevie, my princess, come to me and want me to lift her up in the air by the shoulders. Octavia and Kyoko come and tag me. I have to run after her during all the patrol. Then, Matt pass me the rugby ball, and I play with the older boys. I want to patrol. I want to hear the bell of the end of the break. I want to run to the staff common room to take my cofee 'cause it's to cold outside. I want to see the teachers laughing at me 'cause i've got my head under my jacket 'cause it's to cold. I want to check my mails, to make my cofee, to eat all the chocolate biscuits. I want to hear Mr D. calling me Jean-Claude 'cause it's a french name.I want to avoid Mr Fletcher, the bursar, 'cause he's going to talk to me about my smoking, as urual.
I want to go to sport to teach skills to the children, in the cold maybe, but I want to see them progressing.
I want to hear the bell to bring the children to the chaggers, the changing room, to shout "c'mon guys, hurry up!!!".
I want to go to lunch, to choose the cold or the hot meal. Then to sit down, on my own. I want to see the 3 other girls working with me comming and sitting next to me and asking "how was your morning", as usual.
I wand to get my pooding, custard, my favorite, ever. I want to go out of the dining room to get prepare for my other patrol...
I want to go to my french lessons with Mrs Dobbs. She was so nice. I want to go to the room next to hers with 3 children and teaching them french.I want to hear the bell witch is telling that the lessons are finished, at 4.00 pm.
Then, I want to go to my activities. Football, Hockey, Rugby, Cricket, outdoor skills. I want to take the registers of all the activities. Then I wanna go to tea, the beginning of boarders time, my favourite. I wanna do the register of tea. I have a list and I have to check if all the children are here. It was so hard at the beginning, 'cause I didn't know the children. And they weren't very helpful with me. I want to take my tea at last. Then to seat with the children and listen to them telling me what they've done during the day. Yhen I want to hear them praying for tea and then, silence. I want to tell the children that I will be in the library, in the games room, on the top field.And I want to hear some of them shouting " yeeees Mr Angevin".
I want to be with them during free time. To laugh and to be such a mess!
I want to go back to Burdett, my floor, with Sue, the matron. What a nice person.She's been such a mother for me. I want to cut the fruits, to prepare the milk shakes for the boys. I want to be there at 7.30pm, when the youngers come back.Mr and Mrs Oakden arrive. I want to give the first hot chocolate to Peter Clarck, the youngest. I want to give a strawbery milk shake to Henry Thomas. I want to play at 4 in a row with Ryan Cheng, the best at this game. I want to talk about war with Jack Talbot, I want to laugh with Edouard Brockway and to shout on William, his younger brother. I want to tell them to go to bed "c'mon guys, reading time". During they are reading, I'm preparing the fruits and everything for the olders. 8.30pm, here they are "c'mon year sevens, 25seconds to go to your shower!!".
I want to give the first hot chocolate to Matt McGlead, the second to Sasha, my Russian. I want to sit with them and to laugh about anything. I want to see Lee looking at me like a killer and then laughing as never. I want to tell them to go to bed (something really really hard). When all the boys are in bed at 9.30pm, I sit with Nick Oakden and talk about the boys and the problems we find everyday. I want to go to the computer to send some e-mails, and then to come back at 10.20pm and see Jack Clarck waiting at my door, his thumb in his mouse, waiting for me and telling me "Mr Angevin, I can't sleep". I tell him "As usual Jack, come." Then , I bring him to his room and talk about lots of things. Then, I go back to my room, it's 11.00pm, I take my shower, I wright a bit, sometimes I call to fance, then I go to sleep...
That was a normal day in my school.
You see, I didn't talk about my smoking. But It was something very important for me over there. But, I just wanted to tlak about my work, what I've done. And you know, there's nothing in this text. I didn't talk about the time I spent to see the children playing there match during my free time. I didn't talk about the children coming to me when they are crying to ask me to repriment other children. Anywway. I needed to talk. It didn't help me. Whatever.
I need to go over there to see them. I need it badly...
# pix : smoking a cigarette on the top of the school, next to the childrens' rooms... #
I need to talk.
In fact, it's maybe the first time I need to talk so much.
I've got lots of people around me who will be happy to listen to me.But not now.
I need to talk during hours. And about only one subject. My year in England.
2 hours ago I was talking with a gapper with who I was working. And I told her that I wanted to go back to the school. And she asked me "Why? You wanna work 80hours a week again?". I told her "Yes, I just need to be with my children, the teachers, everybody". It's incredible. She was telling me that the children came back yesterday. Now, exactly now, I am going back to my room to get change, and then, I go to the library to be with the children, and have fun playing silly games on the internet.
I want to wake up at 6.30 in the morning just to see my boys when they wake up. To tell them to hurry up, to get change quickly, then to tell them "line up quietly", et then, going to breakfast. I want to eat my bacon, my eggs, drink my cofee. I want to see them praying after eating. I want to clean the kitchen for them. They don't help me, but it's a pleasure. I want to see them going to school in their nice uniform. I want to hear them saying "By Mr Angevin, have a nice day!" and "Mr Angevin, i'm sure we are going the match today. Are you going to come to see us playing?". I want to go to the laundry to help Sylv, my friend. I want to talk with her about everything listening to BBC RADIO DERBY, with the man and his strange voice. Then I go to my other duties. I want to teach english to my Russians, Sasha and Jenya. They learnt so fastly... I want them to teach me russian.again. I want to teach french to Lee, the japenese, and to Gary, the chinese. So much fun. They aren't able to remember a thing those bastard.lol.
I want to do patroling, the thing that the gappers generaly hate. But me, I love it. Why? because you're surrounded by the children. Jess come to me to hug me. Steevie, my princess, come to me and want me to lift her up in the air by the shoulders. Octavia and Kyoko come and tag me. I have to run after her during all the patrol. Then, Matt pass me the rugby ball, and I play with the older boys. I want to patrol. I want to hear the bell of the end of the break. I want to run to the staff common room to take my cofee 'cause it's to cold outside. I want to see the teachers laughing at me 'cause i've got my head under my jacket 'cause it's to cold. I want to check my mails, to make my cofee, to eat all the chocolate biscuits. I want to hear Mr D. calling me Jean-Claude 'cause it's a french name.I want to avoid Mr Fletcher, the bursar, 'cause he's going to talk to me about my smoking, as urual.
I want to go to sport to teach skills to the children, in the cold maybe, but I want to see them progressing.
I want to hear the bell to bring the children to the chaggers, the changing room, to shout "c'mon guys, hurry up!!!".
I want to go to lunch, to choose the cold or the hot meal. Then to sit down, on my own. I want to see the 3 other girls working with me comming and sitting next to me and asking "how was your morning", as usual.
I wand to get my pooding, custard, my favorite, ever. I want to go out of the dining room to get prepare for my other patrol...
I want to go to my french lessons with Mrs Dobbs. She was so nice. I want to go to the room next to hers with 3 children and teaching them french.I want to hear the bell witch is telling that the lessons are finished, at 4.00 pm.
Then, I want to go to my activities. Football, Hockey, Rugby, Cricket, outdoor skills. I want to take the registers of all the activities. Then I wanna go to tea, the beginning of boarders time, my favourite. I wanna do the register of tea. I have a list and I have to check if all the children are here. It was so hard at the beginning, 'cause I didn't know the children. And they weren't very helpful with me. I want to take my tea at last. Then to seat with the children and listen to them telling me what they've done during the day. Yhen I want to hear them praying for tea and then, silence. I want to tell the children that I will be in the library, in the games room, on the top field.And I want to hear some of them shouting " yeeees Mr Angevin".
I want to be with them during free time. To laugh and to be such a mess!
I want to go back to Burdett, my floor, with Sue, the matron. What a nice person.She's been such a mother for me. I want to cut the fruits, to prepare the milk shakes for the boys. I want to be there at 7.30pm, when the youngers come back.Mr and Mrs Oakden arrive. I want to give the first hot chocolate to Peter Clarck, the youngest. I want to give a strawbery milk shake to Henry Thomas. I want to play at 4 in a row with Ryan Cheng, the best at this game. I want to talk about war with Jack Talbot, I want to laugh with Edouard Brockway and to shout on William, his younger brother. I want to tell them to go to bed "c'mon guys, reading time". During they are reading, I'm preparing the fruits and everything for the olders. 8.30pm, here they are "c'mon year sevens, 25seconds to go to your shower!!".
I want to give the first hot chocolate to Matt McGlead, the second to Sasha, my Russian. I want to sit with them and to laugh about anything. I want to see Lee looking at me like a killer and then laughing as never. I want to tell them to go to bed (something really really hard). When all the boys are in bed at 9.30pm, I sit with Nick Oakden and talk about the boys and the problems we find everyday. I want to go to the computer to send some e-mails, and then to come back at 10.20pm and see Jack Clarck waiting at my door, his thumb in his mouse, waiting for me and telling me "Mr Angevin, I can't sleep". I tell him "As usual Jack, come." Then , I bring him to his room and talk about lots of things. Then, I go back to my room, it's 11.00pm, I take my shower, I wright a bit, sometimes I call to fance, then I go to sleep...
That was a normal day in my school.
You see, I didn't talk about my smoking. But It was something very important for me over there. But, I just wanted to tlak about my work, what I've done. And you know, there's nothing in this text. I didn't talk about the time I spent to see the children playing there match during my free time. I didn't talk about the children coming to me when they are crying to ask me to repriment other children. Anywway. I needed to talk. It didn't help me. Whatever.
I need to go over there to see them. I need it badly...
# pix : smoking a cigarette on the top of the school, next to the childrens' rooms... #
